Khloé Kardashian doesn’t journal anymore.
On Wednesday’s episode of her podcast, Khloé in Wonderland, she revealed it's because of her ex, Lamar Odom.
“I used to journal all the time. I haven’t journaled in years,” she said. “I had a few journals that I journaled literally my life away, and I loved it. And everything was in these journals.”
She explained that one time, when Odom was “going through it” and “having a rough time,” he burned her journals because he was “incredibly paranoid.”
“[He] was convinced that I was taking notes and sending them to the government or something crazy,” she continued. “And he threw all of them into a fire in front of me. And I remember sobbing, tears streaming down my face.”
Khloé recalled being “on her knees screaming” when Odom destroyed the journals, which chronicled “years of her life.” She added, “They meant so much to me. And that was the last time I journaled because I just felt like, wow, that was taken away in a fucking blink. And what was the point?”
While she still views journaling as an extremely “therapeutic” activity, Khloé said the incident reminded her that everything is temporary and she “doesn’t ever want to risk that that could ever happen again.”
“I’m not gonna start a journal again and have someone destroy it, or I lose it, or I don’t know. But yeah, it’s more, I’m not gonna say traumatic for me, but I just don’t even wanna open that up again,” she explained
The former couple married in 2009, a month after meeting each other, and Kardashian later filed for divorce in 2013. After finalizing the divorce in 2015, Khloé called it off when Odom overdosed. She later filed again in 2016, which was finalized that same year.