Although she's been in entertainment for nearly 15 years, SZA is still getting used to being famous.
In an Extra interview for One of Them Days alongside Issa Rae and Keke Palmer, the LANA artist explained exactly why she hasn't fully accepted her celebrity status.
"Some people are very well acclimated in being perceived and also have a different mechanism to approach that," SZA said around the 5:30 mark of the video above "Keke has this crazy network of a mechanism where it's like, everything just kind of like flows, even when the cameras are on."
But for SZA, she doesn't "really know what is happening." "I don't know what the hell going on," she continued. "I didn't grow up famous, I grew up in the 'burbs, I went to regular school, went to regular college, did regular odd jobs until everything popped off."
She continued, "I've never been examined in this way. ... I get just a comfortability with letting my shoulders down and knowing that I'm not in danger just because I'm being perceived by people that I don't know."
The four-time Grammy winner agreed with Palmer in calling fame "weird," although people think that it's "normal" for her.
"They be like, 'That's what you you signed up for, and then I'm like, 'I didn't even know what I was signing up for, actually.' I just made a couple songs and I was grateful that they were liked, and then I kept going."
SZA elaborated on an answer she gave British Vogue last year, to whom she explained her feelings of wanting to retire early.
"Every day I grapple with, 'Am I done with music?’ Maybe I’m just not meant to be famous – I’m crashing and burning and behaving erratically," she told the publication. "It’s not for me because I have so much anxiety. But why would God put me in this position if I wasn’t supposed to be doing this? So I just keep trying to rise to the occasion. But I’m also just like, 'Please, the occasion is beating my ass.'"
The occasion may soon end, as SZA recently expressed wanting to make two children's albums before bowing out of music.
